Anno di cambiamento...
The name is an (albeit overused) quote of my father's. ...the "Year of change" he calls 2005. It's interesting... things *have* been changing this year. Which is why I haven't been posting as regularly as at the beginning. First... my grandfather died. It was the end of May he passed. I think I posted last, and then a couple days later we got the call, and the next weekend we were in Vancouver for the funeral. It was an eventful weekend. It becomes obvious though that funerals are indeed meant for the living, and not the dead... I found no satisfaction at all in seeing a ceramic jar filled with (what I assumed were) ashes... especially after my first experience with cremation involved a James Bond movie where the urn was filled with smuggled diamonds... I got to know my cousins a bit though... got the inside scoop on canibus (saw my first plant... yes... sheltered life here) and hot boxing, and various other banned substances and methods of killing vital functions... and to think! I'm leaving out the weirdest details! ...what a family I have! :D
Then let's see... We returned home and there was church... after over a year without, now we're going to church again... and that's weird. It's only about nine people strong, but we go and meet and talk... It's lead me to realize some things. ...strangely enough, the people who I have the best conversations about God with are people who aren't "Christians" as such... they're the most open minded, and typically the most thoughtful and introspective. Why is that? The same "non-Christians" have told me that they typically don't like my kind... why is *that?!* ...and at church... during the bible studies... Why is it that we as a people complain so much? Why do we seek death for those who we feel to be unworthy of life? "Some that live deserve to die, and some that die did not deserve death, but not even the wise can see all ends..." (I quoted that from memory because I don't have a copy of the Fellowship of the ring to reference ...my appologies if it's not verbatim) ...a couple Sabbaths ago... during bible study, the current event of ...oh dear, what's her name? Gah, it'll come to me... (the lady in Quebec who helped kill three teenage girls) ...the current event of her release from prison, and how one gentleman at the table outspokenly stated that he was "sorry" but that she "didn't deserve to live." Well darn it all! *No* one does! "For all have sinned and *fall* (present tense) short of the glory of God." The French puts it more forcefully... saying that God's glory has been "stripped" from us because of our sin. It has fled from us... and we are deprived of it. I knew a man once with such a *strong* "righteous" indignation that he proactively believed (although he never actually killed anyone) that people should die (literally, then and there) that the entire human race should be obliterated (not just deserved death, but *should* die) (and this even included himself) because we were unworthy of God's glory. Why? Why is it that Christians are so quick to judge, slow to hear and quick to speak? *is deliberately misquoting the verse* ...so ungraceous... So... I'm not sure I want to be a Christian anymore. Not that I'm turning my back on Christ... it's just that I don't want the name... I don't want the bad connotation, to walk down the street and have people say "He's one of *them.*" ...and I realize that Christ also said that people would revile us, and for us to rejoice in it... but it was for actually *being* like Christ... nowadays people don't hate us for Christ's namesake... they hate us because we're ...well... We've become a boy's club. Exclusive, clique-y, white shirts, black ties, kiss the feet of the minister if you're tall enough to reach up to the pedistal... I mean, come on... you've got the Sabbath keepers like me, who are "saved by law," and then sunday keepers who are "saved by fear of hell." *wonders if he just insulted a few people with that* ...unfortunately... if you are insulted... then you've just proven my point... *sighs and puts his head in his hands for a moment* The point being that... this isn't the way it should be... This isn't what Christ meant for us...
After church... then the topic of the bike tour. *grins* not something I feel *quite* as passionate about, so I won't go into as much detail, but... on June the 12th I rode 75.90 kms in an attempt to raise money for MS research *grins* ...oh yes, but as a precursor to that, I bought a roadbike! now *this* is something that excites me! ...27 speeds, Shimano 1.05 for smooth shifting and breaking, single mechanism shifters built into the breaking levers, handcrafter aluminum frame, carbon fibre front forks and seat post, and all weighing in just under 19 pounds :) not bad at all! Add onto that the new helmet, stylish riding gloves, sport sunglasses and hopefully the purchase in the future of a biking jersey and those awesome riding shorts, and I'll be set for the Tour de France! ...er... 2007 :D
Got an Xbox... but... *shrugs* That's ho-hum... *is sort of regretting not getting a PSP instead then he'd have an Mp3 player* ...I guess that's it... my life... and rant covering the past month or more. *hugs you all* I need sleep now :) 'night all.
Then let's see... We returned home and there was church... after over a year without, now we're going to church again... and that's weird. It's only about nine people strong, but we go and meet and talk... It's lead me to realize some things. ...strangely enough, the people who I have the best conversations about God with are people who aren't "Christians" as such... they're the most open minded, and typically the most thoughtful and introspective. Why is that? The same "non-Christians" have told me that they typically don't like my kind... why is *that?!* ...and at church... during the bible studies... Why is it that we as a people complain so much? Why do we seek death for those who we feel to be unworthy of life? "Some that live deserve to die, and some that die did not deserve death, but not even the wise can see all ends..." (I quoted that from memory because I don't have a copy of the Fellowship of the ring to reference ...my appologies if it's not verbatim) ...a couple Sabbaths ago... during bible study, the current event of ...oh dear, what's her name? Gah, it'll come to me... (the lady in Quebec who helped kill three teenage girls) ...the current event of her release from prison, and how one gentleman at the table outspokenly stated that he was "sorry" but that she "didn't deserve to live." Well darn it all! *No* one does! "For all have sinned and *fall* (present tense) short of the glory of God." The French puts it more forcefully... saying that God's glory has been "stripped" from us because of our sin. It has fled from us... and we are deprived of it. I knew a man once with such a *strong* "righteous" indignation that he proactively believed (although he never actually killed anyone) that people should die (literally, then and there) that the entire human race should be obliterated (not just deserved death, but *should* die) (and this even included himself) because we were unworthy of God's glory. Why? Why is it that Christians are so quick to judge, slow to hear and quick to speak? *is deliberately misquoting the verse* ...so ungraceous... So... I'm not sure I want to be a Christian anymore. Not that I'm turning my back on Christ... it's just that I don't want the name... I don't want the bad connotation, to walk down the street and have people say "He's one of *them.*" ...and I realize that Christ also said that people would revile us, and for us to rejoice in it... but it was for actually *being* like Christ... nowadays people don't hate us for Christ's namesake... they hate us because we're ...well... We've become a boy's club. Exclusive, clique-y, white shirts, black ties, kiss the feet of the minister if you're tall enough to reach up to the pedistal... I mean, come on... you've got the Sabbath keepers like me, who are "saved by law," and then sunday keepers who are "saved by fear of hell." *wonders if he just insulted a few people with that* ...unfortunately... if you are insulted... then you've just proven my point... *sighs and puts his head in his hands for a moment* The point being that... this isn't the way it should be... This isn't what Christ meant for us...
After church... then the topic of the bike tour. *grins* not something I feel *quite* as passionate about, so I won't go into as much detail, but... on June the 12th I rode 75.90 kms in an attempt to raise money for MS research *grins* ...oh yes, but as a precursor to that, I bought a roadbike! now *this* is something that excites me! ...27 speeds, Shimano 1.05 for smooth shifting and breaking, single mechanism shifters built into the breaking levers, handcrafter aluminum frame, carbon fibre front forks and seat post, and all weighing in just under 19 pounds :) not bad at all! Add onto that the new helmet, stylish riding gloves, sport sunglasses and hopefully the purchase in the future of a biking jersey and those awesome riding shorts, and I'll be set for the Tour de France! ...er... 2007 :D
Got an Xbox... but... *shrugs* That's ho-hum... *is sort of regretting not getting a PSP instead then he'd have an Mp3 player* ...I guess that's it... my life... and rant covering the past month or more. *hugs you all* I need sleep now :) 'night all.
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